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Save the Drama

Y'know. . .

I am not one for drama.

Well. . .  I am not one for drama in my life.

I enjoy watching drama as it unfolds as long as it doesn't involve me.

I might be a tad hypocritical.  I know this.

Anyway.

My point is this:

My business is my business.  And if I happen to share my business with you?  Consider yourself lucky.  And because I am sharing my business with you?  That does not give you the right to share my business with other people.

Although, your son shared my business with you, not me.  And yes, he got yelled at.

I do not need you talking on the phone and telling the one person who you know I do not like {You know, the one who started a fight between us about something stupid from 2000 miles away?  Yeah her.} about my current health woes and whatever else.

Fuck that.

Fuck her.

I really didn't want YOU to know that I am diabetic.  You blow things out of proportion.  You act like a know it all.  And it makes you look ignorant.

So what if I have to take insulin?  

Insulin is not a bad thing.  It isn't a death sentence.

At least I am trying to take care of my diabetes.

At least I am trying to take care of myself.  {Although, it is turning out to be harder than I thought it would be.}

Please keep my business to yourself.  Do not share it with other people.  Or you could find yourself residing in the land of Clueless.

Capiche?






I Thought I Knew

I wasn't expecting this.

As a matter of fact this is the last thing I really ever expected to happen.

I have lived with someone who has had diabetes for eleven years.  I know what to do and what not to do.

I have watched as he has gone from controlling his blood sugar by diet to taking Metformin to ultimately taking two types of insulin every day.

Diabetes is no joke.

I know what to do and what not to do.

Or so I thought.

Tuesday morning I had a fasting finger stick blood draw done to see what my blood sugar was when I haven't eaten in eight hours.

It was 167.  That is high.

So I had to schedule yet another appointment to discuss what my treatment would be.

That was today.

I walked in feeling fairly confident that I would more than likely have to take a pill to help control my blood sugar.

Upon sitting down and talking to the doctor, he didn't feel that the pill would be a wise choice since I had stated that Randall and I would like to have another child (at a previous appointment).  Apparently it is harder to control your blood sugar on Metformin while you are pregnant.

He said that taking insulin is the way to go.

I had to pick my jaw up off of the floor.

I was not expecting to be on insulin from the get-go.  I figured there would be some other treatment and that insulin would be the last course of action. . .  Because that is what happened with Randall.

I was completely shocked.  Still am.

I have spent the majority of my adult life being the one who was well.  I have never had any diseases or illnesses of this nature.

Within the last month I have been diagnosed with high blood pressure, high cholesterol and diabetes.

To say that I am overwhelmed is putting it lightly.

I start taking the insulin tonight.

I am hoping and praying that with the insulin and watching my diet and exercising regularly, I will kick this last month's diagnosis in the ass.

I know what to do and what not to do.

Let's see if I can put it to good use.





Ten Thought Tuesday: The Health Edition

I am running late today.

It's not my fault though.

Really.

OK, OK.  Maybe it is.

Either way, it's Tuesday and you know what that means around here.

Hop on board and lets go for a ride!

Ready?

Here we go!


10.  Had an appointment with my doctor today.  It was supposed to be follow up with my blood pressure and a follow up with some blood work that was done early last week.

9.  The blood work was a fasting blood work to check my blood sugar and to check my cholesterol.

8.  There is good news and bad news.

Wait.  I'm lying.

There's bad news and worse news.

7.  Bad news:  My blood sugar wasn't checked so I have to do that all over again.  Tomorrow.

6.  Worse news:  My cholesterol numbers are totally out of whack.  The good cholesterol is really low.  The bad is pretty high.  Although not bad enough for me to be put on meds.  I have to try and improve my numbers with diet and exercise.

5.  My blood pressure is still pretty high.  So I have also been put on a diuretic to help my body try to get rid of the unneeded salt and water.

4.  Pretty sure I will be peeing ALL THE TIME.  Thankyouverymuch!

3.  We found out yesterday that one of the in-laws cats has cancer.  Sunday night we noticed a little swelling on the top left of her jaw.  So Monday, Randall and FIL took her to the vet.

2.  They came home looking defeated.  Gave us the news.  MIL, Kaylee and myself have all cried on and off since.

1.  The vet gave FIL a few days worth of pain meds for the cat so that she can be comfortable.  But could not give a time frame as to when she might pass.  So they brought her home and we have all been loving on her as much as we can.

This is not my cat but I am completely heartbroken.  I have been around these cats for years and they have adopted me.  They are part of my family and I love them dearly.

We are worried about how the other cat will react when her sister passes.  I am hopeful that she will be OK.  The in-laws have been saying that they will get a kitten to help keep her company.  I'm not so sure that's a wise idea but, like I said, they are not my animals.

So I am sad and down about the cat and my health.

How was your Tuesday?






The Extended Weekend is Over

Geez.

Monday's suck ass.

Seriously.

Especially after a long weekend.

It's always so hard to get Kaylee motivated to get up and get going.

And?  This week is screwed up with THREE freaking half days!

YAY!  <--Can you feel the sarcasm?

Wednesday, Thursday AND Friday.

For Parent/Teacher conferences.

Insert another sarcastic YAY here. . .


Sigh.

This year they are student lead conferences.  Kaylee's teacher sent a note home saying as much.  And that he would be available for questions but that the student would be doing the conference.

*raises hand*

Excuse me?

*waves hand wildly*

EXCUSE ME?

How, exactly, is it a parent/teacher conference if the teacher is not really having anything to do with the conference?

We are missing part of the equation there.

We have done student led conferences before but the teacher is always right there to put his/her two cents in also.

Kaylee's conference is on Thursday.  We will see how it goes.

I don't know.

Maybe I am overreacting.  It wouldn't be the first time.

Maybe I am just over-tired and grumpy.

What a great way to start off the week.

Heh.




Awkward and Embarrassing

Hi there.

It's me.  Stasha.

I know I would normally have random thoughts up for today. . .

But I am just not feeling it today.

Something weird and awkward happened this morning and I feel the need to share.

Kaylee has been walking her little friends to school in the mornings since school started.

She calls after she is ready to make sure they are ready to go and then walks to their house (which is next door).

Kaylee did not go to school yesterday.

In the early afternoon, Kaylee gets a call from these friends.  She is shocked that they would be calling when they SHOULD be in school. . .

Anyway.

The call is to ask if there is anyway that they can come over to our house in the morning because their Mama has to go into work earlier than normal.

Kaylee tells them that she will call them back later in the evening to let them know.

Now, if anything about my house was the least bit normal, I would not have a problem with it.

But there is nothing normal about my house.

It is tiny.

The in-laws live with us.

When you walk in the front door, what you should be walking into is the living room.  Instead you are walking into a huge room split in half with Kaylee's bed {and other belongings} on one side and the in-laws bed on the other.

Randall and I have the only real bedroom in the house.

So to say that we are embarrassed to have anyone over is an understatement.  I am embarrassed writing it down.

So after much discussion between Randall and I, we decide that it would be better if I could just go over to their house and watch them until it is time to go to school.  We tell this to Kaylee so that she can call the girls back and run it by them and their Mom.

Kaylee tries at least three times to call.  No answer.  She calls their house AND their mom's cell.

Nothing.

So we figure by that time the Mama has made other plans.

Nothing to worry about, right?

Yeah, I thought so too.

Low and behold, this morning at 7am, guess who calls?

That's right. The girls.

They need to come over so their mom can go to work.

OH MY GOD ARE YOU SERIOUS?

I am barely awake.  Kaylee is barely awake.

I look at the in-laws (who stay up all night and sleep all day).  They are of no real help.

I look at the dogs, who wouldn't hurt anyone but they can be slightly obnoxious with their barking and trying to jump up on you. . .  I don't want them jumping on the girls.

Ack!

I tell Kaylee to tell them that they really can't come inside because there are people sleeping (which at that point Randall was sleeping) but that they can sit outside.

Kaylee hangs up the phone.  I rush her to start getting ready.

I run into my room so I can throw on some clothes. . .  And find Randall awake.

I tell him what is going on.  He turns into the voice of reason.

"It's freezing outside.  They can't sit out there for half an hour!  Why don't you bring the dogs in here so the girls can come in?"

Que knocking on the door

I step out of my room and see Kaylee getting her clothes on so she can answer the door.

I tell her to step outside with the girls so that I can grab the dogs.

Stepping into what we will call the living room, I ask the in-laws if they care if I put the dogs in the room with Randall so that the girls can come in so they don't turn into Popsicles.

"We don't care."

Of course you don't.

So I get the dogs wrangled into the bedroom with Randall.

I step outside and tell Kaylee and the girls that they can come in.

I am expecting the girls' Mom to be out there too so I can kinda half-ass explain what the fuck is going on.

She isn't out there.

Huh.  Weird.

So the girls come in.

Randall corrals the dogs.

And the in-laws sit in the living room, watching TV, un-moving.

Kaylee finishes getting ready.

The girls plunder around in Kaylee's toys.

And then I get them all off to school.

But how weird is it that the girls Mom didn't call and talk to me?  Or that she wasn't outside waiting with them to make sure they were OK?

Am I overreacting?

Should I have had more notice than five minutes?


What would you have done?




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