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I Thought I Knew

I wasn't expecting this.

As a matter of fact this is the last thing I really ever expected to happen.

I have lived with someone who has had diabetes for eleven years.  I know what to do and what not to do.

I have watched as he has gone from controlling his blood sugar by diet to taking Metformin to ultimately taking two types of insulin every day.

Diabetes is no joke.

I know what to do and what not to do.

Or so I thought.

Tuesday morning I had a fasting finger stick blood draw done to see what my blood sugar was when I haven't eaten in eight hours.

It was 167.  That is high.

So I had to schedule yet another appointment to discuss what my treatment would be.

That was today.

I walked in feeling fairly confident that I would more than likely have to take a pill to help control my blood sugar.

Upon sitting down and talking to the doctor, he didn't feel that the pill would be a wise choice since I had stated that Randall and I would like to have another child (at a previous appointment).  Apparently it is harder to control your blood sugar on Metformin while you are pregnant.

He said that taking insulin is the way to go.

I had to pick my jaw up off of the floor.

I was not expecting to be on insulin from the get-go.  I figured there would be some other treatment and that insulin would be the last course of action. . .  Because that is what happened with Randall.

I was completely shocked.  Still am.

I have spent the majority of my adult life being the one who was well.  I have never had any diseases or illnesses of this nature.

Within the last month I have been diagnosed with high blood pressure, high cholesterol and diabetes.

To say that I am overwhelmed is putting it lightly.

I start taking the insulin tonight.

I am hoping and praying that with the insulin and watching my diet and exercising regularly, I will kick this last month's diagnosis in the ass.

I know what to do and what not to do.

Let's see if I can put it to good use.





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