Ponderings of a Middle-Aged Mom: Waiting

Waiting

I am standing on the edge of a cliff, looking into a dark abyss.

Waiting.

Feeling like at any moment, something will come along and knock me into the swirling mist.

Waiting.

Transfixed, I stand and watch the darkness toss and roll like a storm cloud moving across the sky.

Waiting.

Fear and apprehension prickle through my body. Hair stands on the back of my neck. Something is going to happen. I can feel it.

Waiting.

In the abyss I see my life. Past and present agitate in a whirlpool of joy and melancholy.

Waiting.

Muddled glimpses of a future that could be. Nothing is set in stone.

Waiting.

Choices need to be made. Decisions that will not be easy.

Waiting.

I am standing on the edge of a cliff, looking into a dark abyss.

I am waiting.

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Oka · 717 weeks ago

and waiting...

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Stasha 77p · 717 weeks ago

And still waiting.

There is just no way to prepare for adulthood.

There should be "Life" courses taught in high school.

Or are there already? Either way there should be. Courses taught about 'real life'.

Sigh.

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Oka · 717 weeks ago

teenagers will never listen, the classes would go in one ear and out the other with 95% of the kids taking them
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Stasha 77p · 717 weeks ago

I don't know. If it's "in your face" and real? I think most kids would pay attention.

Kids need to know that rent and bills don't pay themselves. They need to know that things won't just be handed to them.

And I know most should come from home but it needs to come from school also.

Anyway. . .

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RussellisNLQ 72p · 717 weeks ago

Wow. Hey stasha!

Ive been reading you since I met you and I have to say that this may be they best piece you have ever written.

Beautiful.
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Stasha 77p · 717 weeks ago

Thank you Russ.

There are things getting ready to happen {I can feel it} and I am uncertain about the decisions that will need to be made. And I hate feeling that way.

I hate feeling like I am teetering on the edge. I just want it to happen so that it can be dealt with and we can move on.

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Jennifer · 717 weeks ago

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Stasha 77p · 717 weeks ago

Thanks Jennifer!

So happy that you stopped by and like what you read!

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deleted9257913 52p · 717 weeks ago

Waiting in uncertainty can be hard, but sometimes change is necessary.

Beautiful!
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Stasha 77p · 717 weeks ago

It is necessary.

But I am not a fan of change. I am a creature of habit.

It's just a feeling. It may end up being nothing at all.

I am hoping for the latter but am expecting the worst.

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Alison 102p · 717 weeks ago

Beautiful, and slightly, I don't know, haunting? I feel trepidation in your words. Stay strong!
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Stasha 77p · 717 weeks ago

That is kind of how I feel, haunted.

I don't know what it is that's coming.

Might not be anything at all. Or it could be life-altering.

I just don't know.

But I can feel it lurking and watching and waiting to make its move. . .