Ponderings of a Middle-Aged Mom: SOCS: There will be no arguing.

I am once again joining up all.things.fadra and her Stream of Consciousness Sunday. Nice to have a good brain dump every now and then. The idea is to set a timer for 5 minutes and then publish without doing any editing.
Feel the need to let some things go? Check it out and join in!

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My mind is blank.

I have shit that I want to share BUT? It doesn't want to come out.

What the hell.

I hate when this happens. Being blocked and not even really knowing why.

I think it has to do with being stressed out. I am SO tired of being stressed out.

There are five adults in this house. Do they not realize that things can't get better if something doesn't change??

How long can you play ignorant? How long can you just sit there and be happy with NOTHING?

So very tired of the bullshit. And not being able to say anything is worse.

If I open my mouth? There will be fighting of the World War three sort.

And I don't want that. It's not healthy for any one. Arguing doesn't solve anything. It just ends up hurting feelings.

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Man five minutes goes by REALLY quickly. Not sure if this makes sense to anyone else. Not sure if it's supposed to. Take it as you will.

***Edit: There are NOT five adults in this house. There are five PEOPLE who live in this house. Four adults and one child. A typo that I can't go fix. Sigh.

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@PhasesofMe · 722 weeks ago

It makes sense to me. There are 6 adults in my household. My parents (both disabled), my brother and his fiancee. I understand the feeling of frustration when the words needs to be said and you can't, so rating anything else, including writing, becomes impossible.

This may sound silly, but sometimes I write letters to them, do all my yelling, then burn it and let it go when I know I just CAN'T say it to them for some reason. It helps me get past those words blocking everything else. ((Hugs))

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Stasha 77p · 722 weeks ago

Crystal,

That is a good suggestion but unfortunately? I have a really hard time jotting my thoughts down on paper. It wasn't hard until my ex found the diary that I used to keep and read it. After that? I have a hard time writing things down.

Also? It is EXTREMELY hard to live with other people. There are times that arguments are unavoidable but they never solve anything. So I have decided to stop arguing. Maybe THAT will solve some issues. (Probably not but I have tried everything else)