How my life now versus my life before I had a child is so completely different.
The first thing to go? My figure. Kaylee is eight years old now, and I still haven't lost the 'baby weight' that I gained. Granted I wasn't skinny when I got pregnant but I ended up being more un-skinny than I was before becoming preggy. Although here lately, I have been on a solid losing streak where the weight is concerned.
I can remember before I had Kaylee, when I was a working woman who got to go play in the real world with other adults, I actually could and would take a shower every day.
And now? I am lucky to shower 3 times a week. It's not so much that I don't have the time to shower as it is that I don't have the energy to shower every day.
I remember a time when I would put on a little makeup every day. Now? Now if I put makeup on, everyone makes a big deal about it.
"Why are you wearing makeup Mama?" soon followed by "Can I put some makeup on too????"
"Did you do something to your eyes? They look different."
Plus, Randall gets it in his head that he is going to get lucky.
Speaking of sex...
I remember when I wanted to have sex several times a week. Hell there were days I wanted it several times a day!
Nowadays, I am lucky to actually want to have sex once a month. It has nothing to do with Randall. I am still very much attracted to him. It has everything to do with the fact that I am tired. I would much rather get some sleep vs. get some (what's amusing is that Randall is the same way these days)
I remember having friends and acquaintances by the dozens when I was younger.
These days I have a couple of close friends. I totally blame this on myself. But then again, when I was younger, I was working. I talked to people. I had to have interactions with people daily so of course I ended up knowing a lot of people.
When I was younger, I was way more bold. Now that I am getting older? I feel like I am closing in on myself. More so in everyday life. I physically shudder at the thought of trying to talk to some one in person. More so if that person is a stranger. Not so much online. Online I feel like I can be more open and speak more freely.
You know what?
Everything happens for a reason. All of these changes that I am dealing with are a part of me. They are what makes me who I am.
Can I change some of these things? Sure I can. With a little hard work and dedication, anything can be changed.
I think we have all gone through some of these at one point or another. It is all just a part of growing older.
Or at least that's what I am telling myself.
Have a wickedly wonderful Wednesday!