Just a Ramble

I don't know why but I am feeling down today.

No real reason other than I just have the 'blahs'.

My Mom's birthday was on Thursday.  She made sure to rub it in my face that my sister and my niece came to visit and stayed ALL day.  Plus bought her a cake and some awesome gifts.  Then proceeded to tell me that if I sent her a card that she hadn't received it yet.  Well, I didn't send a card.  I had plans of sending her flowers for her day but I kept putting it off.  She sometimes gets a wild hair up her butt and decides to take off to Tennessee to visit her sisters.  I didn't know if she would be in town or not so I decided to wait and see.

Now I know what you're thinking...  Why didn't I just call Mom before her birthday and ask what her plans were?  I'll tell you why...  I try to limit my conversations with my mother to about once a week.  They take A LOT out of me!  She spends almost EVERY minute of our conversation hounding asking me when we are moving home...  No answer that I give her ever eases it either.  I have told her that we are trying to save the money.  That doesn't work.  I have told sometime over the summer.  That doesn't work.  I have told her that we want to move but we are waiting for Randall's settlement to come in (from an accident back in October) but that when we move we are going to Tennessee.  She accepted that for a little while.  But here recently has started bombarding me with questions of when and where and how...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Can I be truthful with you?

Of course I can.

Mom says that she wants to move to Tennessee (has said this for YEARS).  She claims that she needs me to come back to Ohio so that I (well we, Randall and I but NOT my siblings) can help her pack up her house so she can move.  Truth is, Mom is never going to move.  Ever.  There are TOO many memories in that house that she doesn't want to give up.  She uses needing me to help her as a ploy to get me there and then she will suddenly not want to move.  I AM NOT LIVING IN OHIO EVER AGAIN!  Well not in Cincinnati anyway.

Geez...  Sorry.

I did not mean to get into my relationship with my dysfunctional family...  Actually my relationship with Mom isn't all that bad.  One of these days I will tell the story of how my brother said it was my fault that Mom got sick with pneumonia (December 08) and came close to dying.  Talk about a kick in the face but that was something else!

Anyfamily...

I waited to call her on her day and found she was home...  So I am ordering flowers for her tonight in hopes of them getting to her by Monday or Tuesday.  She will think of them as an after thought.  Like I didn't care enough to get them there on her day.  And that's OK.  I know that my intentions are all in the right place.  I do love my Mom even when she pushes my buttons.  I just wish I could make her realize it.


I hope your Saturday has been decent and may your Sunday be even better!

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