We've been living in the land of WA for just over five years now.
We have had our share of good moments and bad moments with the bad mostly outweighing the good. It has been hard living out here.
There was the year we spent living in a motel because the situation at the house we were staying at (which was R's cousin) turned extremely dangerous. So Randall, Kaylee, the in-laws and myself squeezed into a tiny two room motel room for a year. It was stressful, to say the least. I have been convinced since then that I never want to stay with extended family ever again. And yet here I am stuck with the in-laws.
There was a pregnancy that was unexpected but filled us with joy. There was happiness for Kaylee, that she was going to be a big sister. . .
And then there was a miscarriage which had to have been the worst one (out of five) that I have ever experienced. I believe wholeheartedly that that was my last chance to ever conceive again.
There have been bad decisions made by some people in this family (I wont name anyone but it isn't me. Heh.)
There has been sickness. SO MUCH SICKNESS. I have seen the inside of more hospitals than I care to admit.
But all these things, instead of making us despise each other have brought us closer. Made our relationship stronger. Made me love harder and fight for what I believe in.
We have struggled.
We ARE struggling.
I sense a change is near.
The struggles, the hardships, have all been for a reason.
It's about time that Karma came back and hit us with the good.
We are more than ready for it.
Pouring my heart out with Shell today.
Because sometimes you just have to let go of what's resting on your heart.