I love you. No matter what, you are my Mom and I will love you forever.
I know that you are counting on us coming back to Ohio. I don't want to hurt your feelings. That is the last thing I would ever want to do. But I need you to know that we won't be able to move any time soon.
The truth is, I really don't want to move again. You have told me time and time again that we need to settle and put our roots down and show some stability for Kaylee. I completely agree with you. I told Randall from the time we half-ass starting planning the move to Washington, that I was done with moving. That I would not do another cross-country move again. And I meant it.
You know as well as I do that it isn't easy to just 'up and move' once your child is in school. Look at all the years you put off moving to Tennessee because you didn't want to take me out of the school I was in. All those years that held you there in Ohio. Although I believe you never really wanted to move anyway.
That is where I am now. I am not necessarily happy with where we are or the current situation that we are in but I don't see how moving across the country, to start over yet again, will make things any better than what they are already.
Contrary to what you might believe, I like it here. I like all the green and the lakes and the rain and the clouds. I am happy living here.
I have always heard that home is where the heart is. My heart is here in Washington.
I hope that you understand this decision and stand behind me in making it.
Love you,
Stasha
