I love you. No matter what, you are my Mom and I will love you forever.
I know that you are counting on us coming back to Ohio. I don't want to hurt your feelings. That is the last thing I would ever want to do. But I need you to know that we won't be able to move any time soon.
The truth is, I really don't want to move again. You have told me time and time again that we need to settle and put our roots down and show some stability for Kaylee. I completely agree with you. I told Randall from the time we half-ass starting planning the move to Washington, that I was done with moving. That I would not do another cross-country move again. And I meant it.
You know as well as I do that it isn't easy to just 'up and move' once your child is in school. Look at all the years you put off moving to Tennessee because you didn't want to take me out of the school I was in. All those years that held you there in Ohio. Although I believe you never really wanted to move anyway.
That is where I am now. I am not necessarily happy with where we are or the current situation that we are in but I don't see how moving across the country, to start over yet again, will make things any better than what they are already.
Contrary to what you might believe, I like it here. I like all the green and the lakes and the rain and the clouds. I am happy living here.
I have always heard that home is where the heart is. My heart is here in Washington.
I hope that you understand this decision and stand behind me in making it.
Love you,
Stasha
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Oka · 705 weeks ago
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Stasha 77p · 705 weeks ago
Eventually I have to grow up and just tell her.
So scared as to what will happen when I do.
Sigh.
Oka · 705 weeks ago
My recent post Your opinion please?
Stasha 77p · 705 weeks ago
Will it kill her? Probably not. Will she hold a grudge against me for a really long time? I would guess yes.
I just hate to disappoint.
@PhasesofMe · 705 weeks ago
Truth be told, Paul and I wanted to move to Florida about 3 years ago. Were planning to do it with taxes that year. Then we mentioned it to Mini-Me and we decided it wasn't fair to do that to her. She needed some kind of stability, which was never our strong suit anyway because Paul and I are wanderers at heart, but moving to another state wasn't the exciting challenge WE saw when it came to her.
A loner by nature, most of my friends exist inside this little box. She is social, craving face-to-face contact. Never content for just over the phone and online friends.
In the end, we stayed here for her, although we could've avoided one of the most painful years of our marriage if we'd gone then and not waited. It was worth the sacrifice to give her the chance though.
Hugs, lady.
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Stasha 77p · 705 weeks ago
It was easy then because Kaylee was small. We could just "up and go". Now? Not so much. I refuse to take her out of school. I refuse to make things hard on her.
I am like you, the majority of my friends? Live inside my computer. I am shy and backwards in real life so making friends online is way easier.
My Mom wants us to move back for selfish reasons. That only have to do with her.
I can not make everyone happy. So I need to focus on making my little family happy.