Right?
It is Tuesday isn't it?
OK, good. I thought so.
I have not done a Ten Thought Tuesday in a while. Figured I would today.
You're welcome.
Come along for the ride, won't you?
Here we go:
10. There is so much stuff going on right now that I can't tell if I'm coming or going.
9. I have found out things in the past few days that have left me in a state of shock. I feel like I have been living in a dream world. And I guess when you can only talk to someone by phone, you are. You can only go by what you are told and how the person you are talking to sounds.
8. I am angry with myself for allowing the wool to be pulled over my eyes.
7. I have talked more with my sister in the last week than I have in the last 4 years. It is awesome and bittersweet at the same time.
6. That being said, I feel really bad for my sister. She is dealing with way more shit than what I had ever imagined.
5. I have made a decision based on some of the things I have learned lately. Nothing major. . . But the thoughts I had about moving back east? Not going to happen any time soon. The situation we are in here? Is nothing compared to the situation that we would be in back home.
4. That says a lot. Especially if you have read through the older stuff I have posted.
3. Last week kicked off with a night spent in the ER with Randall. Happy to say that this week did not start out the same way.
2. We are counting down the days until school starts. September 7th can not get here soon enough.
1. Speaking of which, I need to hunt down the list of school supplies and see what we need to pick up. I don't think we need to buy very much this year. *happy dance of joy*
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RussellisNLQ 72p · 711 weeks ago
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Stasha 77p · 711 weeks ago
As for the family drama? Once I am able to process it all? I plan on posting about it. Apparently my sister has been dealing with a lot of stuff where Mom is concerned. Stuff that I had no idea about.
Sigh.
@PhasesofMe · 711 weeks ago
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Stasha 77p · 711 weeks ago
Florida? Really?
Color me jealous!
My only advice? Save, save, save. Don't move blindly. Have a plan. Although I am sure you already know that stuff.
I know in my heart that if we moved back to Ohio, and in with Mom? It would all be dropped on me. Everything my sister has been dealing with? Would be mine and mine alone. Plus? I would turn into wife, mom, nurse and maid x4. No thank you.
Does that make me a bad person?
Oka · 711 weeks ago
I am so opposite in you, when possible, I want my move moved back home here. I want to be able to help take care of her.
Been praying for your family (you was plural last time).
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Stasha 77p · 711 weeks ago
I want to be able to be there for her. But there are things going on that I had no idea of. And I am not putting my daughter into a situation that is worse than what we are in right now. {I know that is almost incomprehensible, but it is true.}
Sigh.
Anyway.
Isisrose · 639 weeks ago
Love ya,
Carmen
stasha78 11p · 639 weeks ago
I have faith in you. I always have.
Everything DOES happen for a reason. I know it does.
Some of these posts are selfish. Because I've been where you are. I know what it's like to be the one who Mom and Harley are dependant upon. The only difference is that you can go home and get away. I couldn't.
I don't want this to hurt your feelings. That's not why its here.
I wrote my feelings to process them.
Think about it, for just a minute, do you think you would be as involved as you are right now if I was there?
Its not fair for it all to be dumped on you. It isn't.
It's too much for one person to have to handle alone.
I have a lot of guilt. I wish that I was closer so I could help.
I'm not like our brother. I do care.
I just can't do anything from the other side of the country.
So, please, don't be upset.
I'm sorry if this post upset you in any way. That wasn't my goal.
I love you. Always & no matter what.
Me