A Mother's Day Ramble

It's Mother's Day.


I get to spend today emptying a vomit bucket and begging Randall to try to eat and drink something.


He just told me he thinks he wants a feeding tube because he is tired of dealing with it all.


How do I react to that?  That feels like giving up to me.  How the hell are you gonna decide to give up when you haven't really fought?  


I am tired of dealing with it myself.  I am tired of dealing with his lazy ass father who has lived off unemployment for 2 and a half years.  And the way unemployment works up here, he gets a check for about 4 months then his checks stop for about 2 months (leaving Randall to provide for THEM).  I just don't understand WHY HE WON'T GO GET A DAMN JOB?!  Why are you letting your SON provide for you? Aren't you ashamed of yourself?


Good grief the in-laws REALLY get my blood boiling...


I have gotten VERY little sleep in the past week...  No I take that back.  I slept OK while Randall was in the hospital.  I have gotten very little sleep since Wednesday night.  I am a zombie.  Have you tried to sleep while someone hurls into a bucket?  Yeah not a lot of rest going on when that happens.


I am stressed about bills.  I have bills that need to be paid NOW and have no funds to pay them.  How can I pull money out of my ass??  I sent an email to my brother in hopes that he will be able to help me out somehow.  Keeping my fingers crossed.


It totally amazes me how things can go from being pretty OK to pretty fucking bad in one fell swoop.






But that is what has been going on in my life for the past week (almost 2) just in case you were wondering what happened to me.  I am still around just no energy to blog.  Hopefully I will be back soon.






I hope your Mothers Day is a nice, decent one!


 

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